I just want someone to be madly in love with me. Someone who will love me more than i love myself; someone who will help me love myself. I want someone who says “i love you” first. I want to feel like we’re equally in love with each other, not like i’m the only one intrested. I just want you. To see that. To act on it. To open up. To love me. Here’s to us. Here’s to not going down the path we were on in June, cause thats where i fear we are headed.
January 13, 2012
Dear tonight,
I had a fantastic time. My boyfriend is the absolute coolest person ever. First, he took me out to dinner where we were awful people and made fun of our waiter for having the most awkward laugh. Then we watched as the people at the table directly next to us took shot after shot and were lucky to be standing by the time they left. Second, he holds my hand in the cutest of ways as we go outside and walk across the street to an outdoor ice skating rink, complete with douchey kids that have too much free time and skate like pros. We then lace up, and gingerly make our way to the rink. Now because I am a natural born klutz, I obviously have no skating ability whatsoever. But this gentleman politely took my hand and kept me from falling. Though he laughed at me for staying so close to the wall, I thoroughly enjoyed my time attempting to ice skate. Finally able to skate away from the wall, all of the children leave the rink and we are the only two on the ice. He says, “one more lap, please?” with the most adorable look on his face. So I agree and as we reach halfway, he proceeds to steer me toward the center, and being the smooth showoff that he is, spins me around and kisses me, right in the middle of the rink, where coincidentally, there is a spotlight. It was dreamy. I don’t even care that I sound like a complete idiot that has lost her marbles. I had a great night. After we finished skating and walked back to the parking garage, we decided to be lazy bafoons and take the elevator up one floor. He drives me back to my house while he is holding my hand and we are listening to the best CD ever to be made. We arrive and go to my room where we spend the rest of the night watching the movie Bridesmaids. It was a very great night for me. Definitely one I will remember for a while. :)
So thank you tonight, for being so freaking great and putting the biggest smile on my face. Well, thank you spence for putting the biggest smile on my face and leaving me absolutely breathless once again. You are the best.
Love,
Shelby
P.S. sorry for the lovey-lovey, couply, most adorable post ever.
